it has always been hard to decipher who is just going to be an acquaintance and who is going to stick around a little while longer
when i first met you i didn’t think i’d ever see you again

i get text messages at 2am discussing things we like and saying that we’ll see each other soon but what is that supposed to even mean

i’m too scared to be anywhere other than my house sometimes
because i’d rather risk my chances becoming so isolated than have to run into you on the street

you’re best friends with him
but there was a point where you threw that all away to sleep beside me for just one night

you make plans with me, often
but then i don’t answer your texts and never hear from you again
even though we saw each other naked

i met you downstairs
you were nice, told me i was pretty
but you live halfway across the world

part of the reason i came back was just so i could see you
and then you left from the bar with another girl

i thought you were different
but i was wrong

you were too old for me, i thought
what interest could he possibly have in someone half his age
(it just never made sense to me, and never will)

we made eye contact on the subway but i know i will never see you again
i hate making eye contact with people

you remind me of someone, you really do
but i can’t let myself find people i used to love in people i don’t know at all

i’m scared to know
if people think about me, the way i think about them
and i’m even more scared
to know
that they don’t think of me at all

boys i have encountered during the past four months (via timedoesnotexisthere)


alwayz worth rememberin: whether u like dudes or not, dudes can be nice, but u absolutely dont need one, i love not relying on any man.  i wake up, make my own shit, clean my carpet, build my drum rack.  never in my life have i needed a man, and nor do you.  your alone?  you have womankind.  mad love 


(via peonybabe)

Forgive the past. It is over. Learn from it and let go. People are constantly changing and growing. Do not cling to a limited, disconnected, negative image of a person in the past. See that person now. Your relationship is always alive and changing.

 Brian L. Weiss

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